Maybe broken but can be fixed

Have you ever wondered what you have done wrong when someone says they are pretty much done with you?  The thoughts run through your head and you think what could i change? Or what can I fix? Well there’s nothing really you can do because you can’t go back or what can you fix if you’re not broken.  Sadly being attached to someone may last may not. There’s nothing we can change.  I know it bugs me when I can’t figure something out when I did something wrong. It’s like a puzzle that’s missing pieces. Well without those pieces the puzzle will never be completed.  Always unsolved and always a mystery.

I was currently talking to a guy for a certain period of time. I don’t care that we weren’t dating or we haven’t known each other that long, it’s just made me happy to have someone by my side that made my day. Or a person who reminded me how beautiful I am without make up. To think that it all could disappear  in one second is hard to believe or hard to look at but sometimes it happens without being ready.  Like me for example  I liked this guy, I mean he was a great guy he made my stomach have butterflies , he made me laugh and smile.  I was so excited that it was like my turn to be happy, then all sudden, it stopped no more texting or talking , just tells a friend to tell you that you’re better off friends, breaks your thought process makes you think like why. Making your heart fall in the pit of your stomach and it’s like a little bit of shock. Being afraid to show that you’re upset because you weren’t actually in a relationship yet but you wanted to so bad makes it even worse.  Now moving on or forgetting is a hard part.

You start to look at your phone waiting to see if he or she will actually text you.  You wonder if they will comment on your Facebook. You wonder if they miss you. You wonder if they are talking about you to your friends or their friends. You wonder if you were really that bad of a person.

Actually sometimes it’s not even the person s fault sometimes it’s the person who said they want to be friends because it’s what they want or need. No one can change that.  Sometimes it’s more personal than anything or sometimes it’s not mutual.  Yes that word mutual, what does it really mean or why does it even have to exist. Well it does and sometimes things aren't meant to be. We will get over it one way or another.

Sometimes that person comes back but then again they might not. You play your life like puzzles even though you can’t figure the puzzle out right away you don’t give up you keep moving you keep talking to people. Moving on is a hard step, but it’s the easiest thing you can do because it will bring you down if you don’t or you won’t be able to be happy.

I won’t lie I know this isn’t easy for me right now, I wish it never happened cause its hurting worse then I wanted. How can I hurt when we weren’t even dating? Well because I was happy and he made the bad and negative things disappear. I don’t care if people think I am strange for how I feel or what I do. I am unique and so are my relationships and my path through life.

The pain or what you had for that person will soon fade and you will find someone that stays with you and the feelings are actually mutual where you know it for a fact. All you can do right now is hang with your friends and have fun. Enjoy what you got going on in your life because even though you get knocked over from a relationship doesn’t mean you shouldn’t give up. You keep moving on.  Things fade, especially the things that don’t matter.

The best thing is no matter who comes in your life or who leaves just keep smiling and loving who you are just finding the one who clicks for you, might be looking just like you!